Hey all

I was trying to put a new poem thinger up, but evidently the system is on maintenence mode or whatever. so yeah. I'm a little confused. Swim team ended. And now there's nowhere to put all my stress and worries, so they're kinda piling up and burrying me underneath them, so to speak. I'm a little nervous about a lot of things. For example, a recent heart problem that hasn't been fully diagnosed yet. Which has been getting worse. A little edgy about that. And one of my best friends just got together with one of my ex's. And its a little rugged going. I'm not even sure why. I dont still like him...I don't know, but its effecting a lot of what I do. I have like an hour where i'm really happy and fine, and then i start to slow down and think about stuff and i'm like "agggh....." so a bit of a roller coaster right now. I'm so confused. And my poor loyal boyfriend is dragging along with this. He's so good to me. Sometimes (like, uhh, NOW) i feel so awful putting him through all this. haha, why can't i just be normal?!?! cuz normal's no fun. all of you know what that's about. So that's a brief synopsis of my life. At some point I'll put some more stuff up. S....l....o.......w.......C....o...m.....p....y. stupid dial up. can't get anything done. I have way more swimmy art to upload, but cuz of our stone age slow connection, its hard to do so. ...hmmness. one day i'll come into the 21st century. well, til that day dawns....i'll be here occasionally trying to upload stuff. Talk to you all laterrrr!!!


~tangy